In a daydream….

In a daydream present time is lost.. my thoughts are filled with the images of you. My mind, body, and soul is sent out to this place in my head where we are one free and happy. I daydream and time passes with delay…. but then I’m sent back with out warning! I close my eyes in hopes that perhaps you’ll return to my once uninterrupted daydream.

I awake hoping that somehow we can engage in each others company. Happy to be in one another’s presents.

Simply happy to be in each others arms, happy to feel the warmth as our skin touches and the feel of your loving lips.

this time of year

I hope that all of you all have wonderful plans this year for the holidays. I know times are a little rough this Christmas/insert the rest of the holidays < and I know for me things could be better. But just remember all that you have and know that as 2008 comes to a close and 2009 fast approaches know friends and loved one's are the one thing money can't buy. Spend time with the ones you hold dear to your heart. Take a moment before the year is tough to tell those that matter most to you that you care and you are 100% happy to have them in your life. Because let's face it you can buy all the right gift but you just can't wrap up what matters most!

Thank you to everyone special in my life and all my friends you can never be bought.

i love you all in that special way
<3

xnight

just saying

The difficulties you meet will resolve themselves as you advance. Proceed & light will dawn & shine with increasing clearness on your path.

- D'Alembert

weekend

October 17-19, 2008

Well I had a very busy and fun weekend, got out of the house and did everything I wanted to.

Friday night I went to my friend’s birthday part and have a good time looking up at the stars (what little we could see over here in Vegas) and checking out the moons surface though the telescope, then relaxed on porch swing.

Saturday went to Bite of Las Vegas and saw Lenka perform :) got my face painted (stars of course). Went down the inflatable slide for one dollar lol and went on this ride that spun you around and around really fast upside down and sideways locked up in cage! Craziness! Got some free ZizZazz this energy powder that's really good. Then went to get eat some really good vegan food at India Oven an Indian Restaurant. Yummmm it was my first time going to an Indian restaurant and I liked it! Then my friends and I headed over to Pool Sharks to break some racks, I won twice :) It was lots of fun!

Sunday afternoon headed over to the mall with a friend to cast my early vote! Happy I got it done. I couldn't vote on an empty stomach so we went to Pei Wei and had me some veg. spring rolls and veg. spicy noodles with Mandarin orange tea. Oo I bought “Veganomigon The Ultimate Vegan Cookbook”, in hopes that I wake up one morning and become the best vegan cook for myself. I love creating new dishes and I want to learn the basics in order to learn all the different combinations. Then on the way home I stopped by the market to get me a late dinner.

That pretty much sums up my weekend, happy I got to spend it with some of my friends.

by the way

I wounder about the people that pass me by, what is their drive? What is their motivation? Are they just like looking for that one? Do they crave something more in life like I do? I'm sure they feel more or less the same but what is it that make it their own motive? What is it in their day to day that keep them going?

RT (random thought) - sis moved out yet again, this time without saying bye.. 

On the bus ride home I was feeling a bit down. I just felt like crying. Yes I know what you're thinking emo me, pms me, but it maybe more then that..  it just sucks feeling so down. The day passes and I feel silly for having such low thoughts. Because over the years I've learn to be a bit more positive and look for the light of things but day by day slowly a shadow can cast over it all. I love what I have, I'm grateful for lots but still that doesn't mean I don't even feel depressed. 

 “Every man is his own doctor of divinity in the last resort” - Robert Louis Stevenson 

And with that I remind myself that even when you feel so alone you always have yourself to turn to. Look deep and remind yourself these thoughts are only temporary.

I was thinking of one of my old friends today that I no longer talk to because of a fall out. Then coming home I saw her drive by her old neighbourhood as I walked by. She slowed down to wave so I waved back, it was nice to see her happy.

RT-  listening to music can be so therapeutic 

RT- fin allergy's suck. I've had this sinus headache all day :( major ouch

RT-inconsiderate people, bitches, unorganized people, and people in a hurry just blow my mind!! 

absent

Bliss the day, bliss the night, bliss the world and all it’s bright

Consumed are we with greed and lust

Look inward, look out

I gather my thoughts and I exhale the past

Bright Lights

The sun, she shines

The stars they glow

The moon he lights up the dead of night

Remember what you do today affects your future.  If you don’t want it in future don’t do it in the present.  The out come can be greater then the day itself.  Actions do speak louder then words.  Actions are the past, present, and future of your life.